ME AND MARRIAGE JUST NOT MFEO

MFEO- years after a cute guy - Kavana sang this song, i found out what the acronym MFEO stands for, about 6 months ago. Made For Each Other.. what a beautifull word.. it's like faith. I mean, you meet someone, and you feel that he/she's the one who made by God for you.. Absolute fairy tale.. Tales that read for us since we were kids and made us dream to live happily ever after. Do u think that such tales really happen? Someone loose her shoes and a guy will pick it and try to find d owner? Hah!! that guy have so much to bet..

Or maybe a guy find a pretty hotty dead girl and kiss her, in case she'll back to life and will love him forever and ever. Bull sh*t.. if only she really back in this real world, i believe that she'll run to her hotty georgeous boyfriend.. Not you, d loser.. HAHA!! kidding..

Anyway.. I believe that i will not find my true one and only love of a lifetime.. I love romantic songs and movies (sometimes), but i don't know, never think that it will happen to me.. That fairy tale..

Me and marriage just not Made For Each Other..

I never want to marry anyone. Some people think that's a very crazy tought.

"Dont say like that..R U CRAZY??"

"Come on..someone will love u someday.. believe me.." yaa..thanx 4 sayin' that..remind me of how bad i am..

People r so histerical everytime i say that i dont want to get married. It's not a problem for me, how come it bother them so much?

Besides, I think that God doesn't want me to get married too. Coz everytime I get a tought of

"Mm..marriage life cud've be nice.." - and a nightmare attack me!!

Nightmare bout marriage, where I'm d bride. That scary feeling always come to me.. Scare to live with a man who i never know, to leave my parents, to live with some strangers for the rest of my life, to be trapped forever in a cage called "love" that i might not have, and to loose my freedom forever..  I cry a lot, screaming like a possessed girl, runaway from home.. what a nightmare..

The thought of loosing my freedom was terribly freak me out.. I think I need a rehab. is there any rehab institution that able to heal married syndrome?