PMS

Premenstrual Syndrome - is a collection of emotional symptoms, with or without physical symptoms, occuring only during the luteal phase of the menstrual cycle. Prominent symptoms are: irritability, unhappiness, stress, anxiety, insomnia, headache, fatigue, increased emotional sensitivity, and change in libido. 

"Sufficient severity to interfere with some aspects of life"

The exact causes of PMS are not fully understood. While PMS is linked to the luteal phase, measurements of sex hormone levels are within normal levels. It is thought to be linked to activity of serotonin (a neurotransmitter) in the brain Recent studies in rats indicate that levels of glutamate, an excitory neurotransmitter, spikes prior to menstruation in the cortex and hippocampus. High glutamate levels have been tied to mood disorders in several studies.

-Wikipedia

PMS adalah saat dimana saya merasa seperti manusia. I don't know.. Saat PMS, saya merasa jadi filosofis, semua hal kecil dipikirkan. Semua hal tampak berarti lebih daripada biasanya. I'm not cranky, tapi selalu merasa seperti bumi menarik saya jatuh ke dasar. Dimana tidak ada orang yang tahu atau peduli. I feel lost, loose, sad.

Melihat seorang anak kecil menangis di pinggir jalan, lalu ibunya datang memberi sekotak es krim. Saya teringat mudahnya masa-masa itu, bisa mendapatkan segala keinginan hanya dengan menangis. Tapi sekarang, saat saya kangen keluarga dan teman-teman yang jauh di sana, saya menangis, dan saat membuka mata, mereka tetap tidak muncul di hadapan saya. I guess, we finally realize that life's hard when crying isn't the way out.

Well, that's my PMS. Forget the cramps, thank God I never get the worst cramps like some females.